Annika's Diary

I know I’ve written about this at some point. I just don’t remember when.

The perfect moments of happiness.

A few days ago I was sitting in the car. I looked at the road past my toes, smoked, which I shouldn’t have been doing in that car.Saw something that might have been from a movie. Waited to be allowed to go past the construction bit. Talked about having wild sex on the hood of the car, in front of everyone. But didn’t do it. Had an argument about the air conditioning and the funky smell in the car. Laughed at funny road signs. Ate candy and nothing else.

And all of a sudden, I felt completely happy. In that small moment in time I felt I had everything I could ever want. Weird. It still feels like nothing can change the fact that I had that moment. Although I know that at any moment, someone could come and tarnish my moment.

I’ll hold on to it.

Just as I’ll hold on to the moment this morning, drinking coffee in the sun. Or last night, watching the bats fly about. Or the taste of the strawberry cake I made today.

It’ll all be well in the end (even though I know that it won’t be a happy ending, you see, I’ve read this book before too).