Have you noticed, how people tend to build other people complete personalities in their heads, and when those other people can’t behave and act like that person they created, they get insulted and angry. Most of the time even I don’t know who I am, and when I don’t know it, it terrifies me that some other people think they do. It’s hard enough trying to be who I really am, without having to try to be someone else for someone else too!I think I’m going through another rough spot. School isn’t going particularly well, and other things in my life suffer because of this. well, I think that phenomenon is called life. I don’t think I should build up expectations on situations, and I definitely should forget about being in control of the situation. The problem is, that that exactly is often the hardest thing to do!

Often I wish I could just give people a tour in my head. It would at least make the misunderstandings smaller. I know, everyone else has the same problem too. I just think, that other people seem to be able to express their feelings better.

I know I’m over social. I know I seem to be confident. And I definitely know I don’t really have a need to seem like anything else but confident. Sometimes I just wish I could decide who I was, and then just be that person.

The point is, I’m at least three different people (in a good way, not the “I need to be hospitalized” -way), with different people.

My granny thinks I’m a virgin, my friends see me as confident, someone out there sees me as indifferent, and I see myself as scared and lonely. So go ahead. Tell me who am I, please.

-A

p.s. S. Have fun in Egypt!!!